OMG I WAS SO MUCH THINNER!

my sister commented that my blog is too negative! it's only because i only blog when im emo. HAHAHA.

back in CASUAL POET. i miss this place! yeah, kindaaa :D

i have MILLIONS of photos to blog about my fab weekend :D

went swimming this morning & the sun was shining really really brightly. im un-white now! that means im not exactly tanned but not white. BLAHHH.

went to watch 500 days of summer.

if youre unhappy, maybe things are just not meant to be. what's the point of searching for answers when there are really no answers?

took a long walk home & thought a lot.

i guess i suddenly realised that life is not going to be easy. & if i want to survive, maybe it's time i change my attitude. being pampered from young is not an excuse to be so spoilt. people from the real world will not accept it. i guess its time i step out of my (very) comfort(able) zone and SUFFER.

maybe my parents should just throw me out & let me TRY to survive on my own.

sighhhh

2010, i have to be strong!

i know i am pathetic. i am fickle minded. self centred. stupid. idiotic. everything.

im sucha loser.

a broke loser.

sometimes i look around me and realised that i probably dont have any real gd friends or best friend. i have practically no friends. people i care about are usually too busy to care about me. and my boyfriend, hes basically just not here.

sometimes i feel alone.

sometimes i feel scared.

its so easy for me to screw things up when im alone, since im always so clueless, naive or simply stupid.

i didnt work today again. i guess im just feeling depressed. i am thinking of this song.



突然覺得　我只是一個人　有點孤單　淺淺的憂鬱我不知道明天　會不會　很美麗雖然今天天很藍　而雲很白　風很涼今天日記　空白　沒有關係　不必每件事情　都在意不想工作　不想困擾自己　不必刻意想你該是我的總會來　就算挑戰　我不走開一點點你的微笑　已經讓我覺得溫暖我還不懂堅持　正好讓我　學會去愛我曾經看見困難　變得膽小　不夠勇敢但還是要相信　相信感覺　相信簡單

what should i do today?

what about watching 500 days of summer alone?

(currently) things i want to do before i die

1. volunteer in cambodia/other poor countries for a few months
2. study/work abroad for a few years
3. be un-fat
4. go to a secluded beach and live there with baby for a few months
5. attend japanese classes & get at least JLPT 3
6. start my own thing!
7. learn kickboxing/karate/teakwando or whatever
8. climb mt everest or smthg with baby!
9. see SNOW!
10. quit every bad habit in my life
11. start an dog/cat foster home for strays ):
12. move into my very own apartment

cant think of more for now!

ATTEMPTING to blog with clear pictures

why so blur ):

my hair damn short ):